Drop Off

There is nothing more unromantic than having to do a semen analysis, not to be too descriptive, but the time constraints make it that much worse, it has to be dropped off within an hour first thing in the morning. That leaves about a 15 minute timing window between getting it to drop off at the doctors office and my hubby having to get to work, talk about pressure. But we successfully dropped it off this morning and heard great news, my IVF panel of blood work came back and everything looks good, so we can move forward with injections on Monday. The first out of 13 prescriptions should be arriving on Saturday.

I am so EXCITED but also scared of what the next month will hold (side effects and scheduling)! Every time I think about how close we are I get goose bumps. My brain won't stop thinking about it, planning, imagining, dreaming...My transfer date is set for 1 month from today, 1 more month and Baby Franco is conceived! I wish I could open my eyes and it would be August 9 and all the shots would be over. Where's a time machine when you really need one?! As I was leaving the doctors this morning partial song lyrics came into my head and have been ringing all morning...

"When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by Glory
And I realize just how beautiful you are and how great your affections are for me "
- How He Loves - by David Crowder Band.

The words are so powerful and a HUGE reminder that God is in control, that this is his plan...there are so many times that I have questioned if I did this to myself, if I could have done something different...why can't it just be easy. Those inner demons are the worst part of this experience, and there have been days that I have let those questions take over...but I can't live in that belief. While I know that I have not always made the smartest choices, I can't blame myself. I believe that this experience is preparing my Husband and I for life, it is making us a stronger couple, exposing each other to our most deepest desires and teaching us how to better understand each others pain. We are preparing for the next stage in our love story. ..Our children will always know that we fought to bring them to life!

So for now, we will take it day by day, and hold on to every positive things the doctors say! (my uterus looks great, my hubbys swimmers should be framed, blood work is normal , we are young enough that IVF should be a success) Thank you for all your support and love! We couldn't do it without having a team of cheerleaders!