The Waiting Game

We are officially waiting for the big moment....I'm 38 weeks 4 days according to my OB's calculation. So according to my theory I'm already late, lol. Looks like little G wants to stay in his snuggle spot to become big G. I have a feeling he is going to be bigger than Dominic...just a theory.

These last few weeks have been very emotional for me. I keep looking at Dominic and thinking that today could be our last day together with just us. The thought keeps me going through all the back pain and exhaustion. We still do fun things together even though I feel like I'm a blimp. Everyday I'm reminded of how lucky I am to get to spend all this quality time with D....I'm beyond lucky actually...truly blessed is better. These moments are priceless and each day that passes can never come back. D is such a happy baby full of joy and determination. His newest thing is saying Mom, wait no, yelling mom, looking for me as he rounds the corner of the kitchen. I think my favorite moment of the day is when Da brings D down in the morning and I feel a little tap on my foot and turn around to a smiling face and a wave. It's crazy to think that any moment we will have another little baby in our bed in the morning, I know he will be as special as D is to us. I'm ready to meet Gio and watch our family grow. 

I wonder how it will happen, if my water will break or if ill be counting contractions. Either way I'm cooked and am ready for sleepless nights and fresh baby snuggles. Xo

The 30's

It's funny how a number can increase the excitement....I'm approaching week 33 and if my calculations are correct, I only have 6 more weeks to go, I know the math doesn't make sense but let me explain, My first pregnancy was identical to this one and our little love bug made his apperance at exactly 38 weeks. He was 8 lbs 2 ounces and had a gorgeous head of black hair...based on these facts, I'm convinced that if I had carried full term (40 weeks) D would have been Goliath...therefore our new little baby G must be coming out sooner :0) get my math?  So the excitement is rising and the lack of sleep is beginning....our life will be forever blade better in just a few more weeks. 

This pregnancy has been wonderful and so very fast. Chasing after baby #1 has been a challenge but it's just one of those things you do and don't realize your doing it till the doing is done, confused yet? Haha Our little baby Geo is active making himself known by stretching out all the way into my rids. I think the boys are already bonding with me. whenever I snuggle Dominic at night, Geo starts kicking...it's like he is trying to let D know he is there. 

Life couldn't be better as we wait for our family to grow by one more. So so very excited!

Choices choices and more choices

I thought making choices as an adult was difficult, then making choices as a married couple came along and that was even harder...but nothing tops making choices as a parent. From the everyday seemingly insignificant, such as what shoes to wear, to the almost impossible...my impossible choice was my work situation. I have been with the company for 7 years and felt that my time there coming to an end...I couldn't make the choice myself so eventually they made it and let me go. As a Christian I believe that God has a plan and a purpose for my life, it's not always clear and could take some time before it makes sense....so I believe that this was God's way of closing that door (working in an unhealthy enviornment) and opening up opening up a new one, giving me the one on one time with baby #1 before baby #2 came along. See, I have always valued being a mom, and when it came down to it, I put my family before my career. This isn't the easiest decision as I have strived to be successful at everything I have done. I finished college a year early and jumped head first into my career. I did not want to be a failure at life, I wanted to make tons of money, be admired for how hard I worked and thought of as smart. I had set high expectations for myself and didn't stop after my bachelors. After all, you can't be to educated, right? These things that I thought were so important suddenly were not when we started trying to get pregnant. I realized that there was nothing more important than having a family. And God set me on that journey. It was a struggle as I started questioning everything about my life and my past choices, did I do something that brought on the fertility problems, why can't I control the situation. It became an overwhelming part of my life and a true struggle as we went through the process. At times I felt alone and I questioned everything. I think God was trying to help show me that I can't always do everything on my own and I truly had to give it to him. The process taught me to appreciate our baby more than anything money could buy. He was our true gift in every way. And now I am at a crossroad where choices need to be made, with only 3 months left till baby 2 shows up and zero dollars in our savings account the financial pressure is consuming our family. What is the right, the best, thing to do? I thought I knew the answer, I thought that sharing these last few months with our son was the perfect plan...I'm not giving up my career, just putting it on hold for a much greater purposes. This is how I see it, that to struggle a little will be gain in the long run. That this was God's plan and he has given us the perfect opportunity...but maybe I'm being selfish and overvaluing these times together. Being a stay at home mom isn't always easy. Sometimes you can feel as if your loosing yourself as your identity changes. You are no longer measured by the dollar sign in the bank account but by the hugs and kisses given throughout the day. They are priceless but hard to explain when the questions start coming in on what you do for the family. There are days when the house never gets clean and I'm just to tired to care but I know that our baby has experienced something new, from a ice cube on his tounge to the sound of raindrops on the umbrella. Sometimes I feel as if I'll forget everything I studied so hard to learn and that no one will appreciate or want me. God is teaching me that a persons worth is not defined by there career or bank account. I am being reminded that I am worthy because I am a child of God. Designer clothes and a perfect figure can't compare to the love and bond between a mother and child. My prayer tonight is that God will continue to bless our family and guide us to make the right choices for our family, as husband and wife and father and mother, and not what feels right for ourselves. I don't know what the answer is but I'll be waiting to hear that still small voice.

Halfway point

Yay! We are 21 weeks along and you have hit the 1 lb mark, this is reason to celebrate! My belly is rrallynstarting to get big and we finally started doing our weekly pictures at 20 weeks, I'll have to post one up soon! I just had a checkup and got to hear your heartbeat which put my heartbeat at ease. This last week has been a roller coaster of emotions to say the least. I was officially "let go" at my very first and only job since leaving college. After 7 years of service I was expecting a little bit more of a nice goodbye, but corporate America strikes again. Not even a good luck to send me on my way. I knew it was coming after I informed them I was prego they started treating me differently and right off the bat wanted to know my pals for tax season. I knew I wouldn't be able to do another tax season when you are only 3 months old so I was preparing to leave...but God's plans were a little faster than my own. I'm trusting in him but rejection still hurts. Every little kick you give soothes me, and every smile and snuggle from your big brother eases me...I know I made the right decision by choosing my family first! God is blessing is everyday, Daddy is doing so well at work and is motivating me to be my own boss. I'm excited for this next chapter to begin...and I want you to know we are parlaying for you every night with Dominic...I pray that my sons will grow up to be men of God, strong, passionate, and loving. That will be you baby Framco number 2, now if only we can agree on a name. Night night

You're a ....

We finally had our ultrasound to determine if you are a boy or girl...we wanted to do a cupcake reveal party but it got too complicated after thu changed our ultrasound date. We went into the ultrasound with the intention of keeping the sex a secret so that we could do our own little reveal that night. Daddy and I stuck to our plan nd didn't find out during the ultrasound but we went back and forth about it for awhile. We made it out of the building and still didn't know, which was a big thing for us. Daddy had to go back to work and I was starving so I took the precious envelope to a breakfast spot and asked them to put a muffin in the a bag for me, blueberry for a boy and apple for a girl... We fed it to each other with our eyes closed, it was so exciting and I think you know the outcome...we had BLUEBERRY for a boy! So now Dominic will have a precious baby brother to be his newest and bestest friend ever! I'm so very excited for this new journey...even if I'll be totally outnumbered, hehe. Even more importantly, you are perfect, 10 fingers, 10 toes and you had your feet crossed relaxing ;0) just like mommy! We have 5 more months before we get to meet you face to face...I still can't believe we are blessed with another baby! Wow, God is so good!

Baby kicks and flips

The second pregnancy is so different...I know what to expect and know what to look for, feel for...and this past week I got to feel my favorite part of preganancy, baby kicks! You must be one strong little baby because daddy could even feel it on the outside and I'm only 17 weeks pregnant.i got to hear your heartbeat this week and you kept kicking the monitor. As I'm typing it feels like your flipping. You keep reminding me to relax with every little kick I feel. It's much harder to do (relax) this time around, Dominic likes to be chased. He isn't walking yet but is into everything, I can't wait to see the 2 of your together! We find out if you are a boy or girl on Tuesday. I'm feeling girl because I have different food cravings and my face is really broken out. But who knows. Either way, I'm thrilled to have another little soul to love!!!

Car Napping

I'm writing this from the front seat of my car parked in the driveway. These days we cater to Dominic's random acts of napping. He has a regular morning nap but latley has been skipping his afternoon nap unless we are driving. So we have gotten into the habit of letting him sleep as long as possible bc as soon as he gets out of the car it's a party and he doesn't want to sleep anymore. I should be taking advantage by taking a cat nap but I am feeling guilty for not writing more often. There are so many moments to document on this journey but so little extra time. My days are filled with taxes, dirty bottles and stinky diapers...but the best part of all is the little smiling face that goes along with it all. Dominic is my light for sure! Everyday I pray for 2:30 so I can come home and spend time with D...I had no idea how my love could continue to grow but it does, I am amazed that I have any extra space in there for baby Franco #2 but I can feel my heart growing each day. I love baby Franco and can feel the life inside me...it's amazing! I'm almost 11 weeks pregnant now...time is going very fast and the 2nd trimester is right around the corner. YaY! I'm praying for more energy because I am honestly spent...exhausted doesn't fully describe how I feel each night. I need to listen to my body and go to sleep a little earlier, napping just isn't possible because of my schedule. I also weened Dominic from breastfeeding over the last month. I'm sad and feel like I lost a little piece of our bond. Nursing was so intimate and sweet. It was our quiet moment in a hectic day, my favorite part was when he would fall asleep on me, it was so snuggley perfect! But Dr L thought I should quit to be able to give baby Franco the best little womb to live in so I did. Dominic doesn't really miss it so that's good.

No other real news, I haven't thrown up this pregnancy and have been feeling the same as the first time around so no complaints. Maybe baby Franco is another boy. Hmmm either way I'm so stinking excited to be a family of 4. Life is Better than Good!